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nothing much to say.... same as before... this is starting to get to me... i hate being ignored and really hate feeling like im invisible... I've never been so quet in my life.. then this place..... thats all I really have to say

                                      lol i needed a good laugh

edit::::: okay my computer is being gay and i cant add a new entry so here goes....... lol tired tired and umm oh yea tired... i dont know what is with me but lately i am always tired.... grr whatever haung out with nickie shawna and some chic lauren i dunno if she liked me or not... didnt really talk to me and we hung out with some roy kid he was like 14 but pretty cool nonetheless..... well anyway jsut chilled today it was cool couldnt sleep over at nickies grr mean parents lol w/e no biggie ill jsut sit and do nothing all night like i always do aaahhhh i feel like screaming no reason in particular jsut kinda frustrated today jen was pissing me off.... im not racist or anything but she thinks everyone hates her jsut because shes black and whenever the teacher tries to write her up its "because im black isnt it?" get e freaking grip girl! shes annoying talks to much and has the biggest attitude problem in the world. ggrrrrr whatevers whatever i guess well thats all for now peace

just another day...

no school today thank god........... well dont feel like saying much.... kinda in a bad mood kinda not..... im not explaining if you really want to know you can ask me

 lol good movie

 For every break up,
you're one step closer to
the one you truly love.

It makes no difference what you believe,
if you don't stand up & make the difference.

Don't be afraid of death,
be afraid of an unlived life.
You don't have to live forever,
you just have to live.

You're only young once so
be bad, break the rules, get caught
& make it count.

Forever isn't long enough to get over
giving so much up to someone
who just threw it all away.

 If you want what you've never had,
you have to do what you've never done.

It's  difficult
watching someone change
right in front of you,
but the hardest part is
remembering who they used to be.

And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown.

And then i thought of all the things
that i wanted to say...
I'm always too late.

>>to who I used to be.....what happened????

The most painful, and worst possible types of goodbyes
are the ones that are never said, or never even explained.

we don't have to touch, we don't have to speak.

and this folks is my problem.......... im always waiting for the perfect person, the perfect life...... maybe i should just stop watching movies... tv too.  i dont really want complete perfection...... just happieness...(and semi-perfection..)

Sometimes, I'd forget all the pressure of life
and get caught up in you
As time goes by
you'll fade away into the distance
Moments become memories
and you become history
Thats the irony of it all
Because then, evetually
I get caught up in life
and I forget all about you......tony

Let's be one of those cliche couples;
the ones who hold hands in line,
kiss each other in the hallway,
& make everyone insanely jealous

i want to stand as close to the edge as i can,without going over. out on the edge, you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.
- Kurt Cobain

i want power in my words,
i want passion in my eyes.
and when i wake up,
i want life to be a surprise

i hate that time before
you go to sleep at night cause thats
when all the thoughts you've been
trying to avoid start to linger in your mind.

              i love you morgan                     

okay im not stupid swings are great....... ya gotta love them... its the only time you can really be a kid and just say fuck it im flying

where words fail music speaks.....

tired gonna surf the net for a while

i think im gonna start a song of the day today i have 2

drake bell~hollywood girl
pink~who knew

thats it peace

just another day...

no school today thank god........... well dont feel like saying much.... kinda in a bad mood kinda not..... im not explaining if you really want to know you can ask me

 lol good movie

 For every break up,
you're one step closer to
the one you truly love.

It makes no difference what you believe,
if you don't stand up & make the difference.

Don't be afraid of death,
be afraid of an unlived life.
You don't have to live forever,
you just have to live.

You're only young once so
be bad, break the rules, get caught
& make it count.

Forever isn't long enough to get over
giving so much up to someone
who just threw it all away.

 If you want what you've never had,
you have to do what you've never done.

It's  difficult
watching someone change
right in front of you,
but the hardest part is
remembering who they used to be.

And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown.

And then i thought of all the things
that i wanted to say...
I'm always too late.

>>to who I used to be.....what happened????

The most painful, and worst possible types of goodbyes
are the ones that are never said, or never even explained.

we don't have to touch, we don't have to speak.

and this folks is my problem.......... im always waiting for the perfect person, the perfect life...... maybe i should just stop watching movies... tv too.  i dont really want complete perfection...... just happieness...(and semi-perfection..)

Sometimes, I'd forget all the pressure of life
and get caught up in you
As time goes by
you'll fade away into the distance
Moments become memories
and you become history
Thats the irony of it all
Because then, evetually
I get caught up in life
and I forget all about you......tony

Let's be one of those cliche couples;
the ones who hold hands in line,
kiss each other in the hallway,
& make everyone insanely jealous

i want to stand as close to the edge as i can,without going over. out on the edge, you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.
- Kurt Cobain

i want power in my words,
i want passion in my eyes.
and when i wake up,
i want life to be a surprise

i hate that time before
you go to sleep at night cause thats
when all the thoughts you've been
trying to avoid start to linger in your mind.

              i love you morgan                     

okay im not stupid swings are great....... ya gotta love them... its the only time you can really be a kid and just say fuck it im flying

where words fail music speaks.....

tired gonna surf the net for a while

i think im gonna start a song of the day today i have 2

drake bell~hollywood girl
pink~who knew

thats it peace

well hello boys and girls

been really tired lately.... going back down to whitehall later! lol but w/e getting some stuff ethans gonna be mad i cant see himagain oh well.... maybe next time. dont really have much to say... jsut been doing a lot of thinking lately... tryig hard as hell to avoid tom... i dont want to end back up with him jsut because i hate being alone which i know will happen cuz im stupid with that shit but w/e... kinda been thinking about old relashionships lately... rich tony johnny (those were the bad ones) but i still loved them anyway.... notice how you always fall in love with the people that hurt you the msot.... huh  well that jsut sucks but w/e then there was eddie and shane and ethan (ended bad but good while it lasted) some others to..... i suck at relashionships but w/e ill find someone... i hope....... well thats it for now... later peace  

I laugh at silly movies,
& I'm stubbon as a stone.
Yeah I criticize my body
I wonder if I'm ready to be alone.
I'm just like everyone else
Yes I cry when you don't see,
I don't know what you want
Or what you think about me.
But this; this is who I am.

No matter what you do to me, I'm still here. For some odd reason,
I stick around and put up with all your mood swings and unkind words.
I just let your comments roll off me into a puddle on the floor.
I make up excuses on why you didn't call try to think of all the answers.
I keep going back for more even though sometimes you push me away.
I don't know if I can do better, but do I really want to? You're quick to
push me down when all I want is to be brought up. When I walk out for good,
when I really gain the strength I need then maybe you will see. Maybe you can
look back and say, "Wow that girl really did love me."

you asked, "so whats goin on in your life?" and I thought,
"well, i like you, but you're with her,
and it breaks my heart everytime i see you two together.
im failing everything at school and my parents are divorcing.
What else? oh yea, i still have an hangover from the last time
something had to stop me from thinking of you." but instead i just said,
"Nothing much. And you?"

People say i'm a bad influence, i say the worlds already fucked up, i'm just adding to it.

yeah, i plan to forgive and forget.
forgive myself for being stupid,
and forget you ever existed

[&&] Im the kind of girl who keeps making
mistakes && Im constantly getting
them shoved in my face.

She says shes fine
but shes going insane,
she says she feels good
but shes in a lot of pain,
she says its nothing
but its really a lot,
she says shes okay
but really shes not.

Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know Im not perfect; and I dont live to be.
But before you start pointing fingers
make sure your hands are clean.
-- Bob Marley

                                        eeyore!!!! i wuv u.... take good care of my hammer pleeeease...... lol

that'd be nice....     

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Walk like you are the stuff,
Talk like you know it all,
Laugh like you've never laughed before,
Love like you wont ever love again,
& Live your life like no one can beat you down.---- sounds like miss lucy..... best advice i ever got in my life.... i owe that lady

 lol twilight great book i recommend it to everyone who has not read it

i miss my show......... havent watched it in days..... very sad well ill definitely watch it tomorrow..... wait i watched it yesterday... not the end though... i ... a lot hmmm..... lmao need to work on that...... later...

nothing new in the life of.. me lmao but yeah toms been annoying me talking about his gf like i really care i broke up with him remember?? ergh well thats about all the news i have.. oh yea and ryans really hot. i jsut kinda realized i like him.. even though he is shorter than me but then again almost everyobody is lol well peace

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

~slipped away avril lavigne